Here I am at week 22, where my baby girl weighs in at a whopping pound and measures nearly eight inches, about the size of a small doll. (Translation: My belly is ever expanding!)
Last week, I was weighing steadily at 136lbs with a smile on my face. It was a good sign that I am not gaining weight drastically. I felt so good until I weighed myself yesterday morning, after which I turned frumpish and sulked all day. What have I done that caused me to jump from 136 to 138.8lbs?
Then, I realized the noodles and pasta that I indulged in during the weekend were the main culprits.
Carbs have always been my worst enemy ever since I inherited this pear-shaped body. I should have held back my cravings and consumed those nasty-to-my-hips noodles moderately. My ObGyn has already advised me from the start of the pregnancy to go slow with the carbs. *Frowns*
In addition to the abovementioned frustration, I can barely stare into the mirror today, especially when I am clothed with nothing. The sight of my bloated and puffy cheeks, flabby arms, love handles, enlarged buttocks, thickened calves, and thunderous thighs is extremely undesirable. I simply do not enjoy the woman in my mirror. I am yelling a big “thank you!” to my plunging confidence each time I see my out-of-shape silhouette being less attractive than before.
I know I am being silly. My husband said that it is perfectly normal to be this way when I am pregnant. I don’t want to end up working too hard to shed off the pounds after my baby is born. I cannot afford to put on any more flabbiness and disgusting visceral fat around my body. I only want my baby and my uterus to grow, not other parts of the body.
Besides criticizing myself badly, I will keep reminding myself to abstain from refined carbs and sugar. I can’t walk excessively due to the fact that I have been diagnosed with a somewhat low-lying placenta. There goes my fitness routine to keep me fit and slim.
Enough said. I will eat more fruits. I will eat more protein. I will drink more water.
What a frumpy grumpy week! Sigh!