Being in week 39, I am feeling like I just want to get Annakate out of me. I’m not sure, but the impatience and discomfort that this pregnancy makes me feel now might be nature’s way of getting me mentally prepared for delivery. I am all grouchy and in a don’t-irk-me mode. I have not been sleeping well. It is just impossible to flip sides in bed on my own with the overbearing weight.
I am envious of people around me with an EDD later than me, enjoying their newborns now. Having said that, I am often being reminded that babies coming out at week 39 and 40 are so much healthier than those who come earlier.
Technically, I am only days away from my EDD and although doctors already consider me full-term, I could have my baby anytime. With my uterus stretched tight to hold my currently estimated at 7 to 7.5pounds baby, she should have very little room to move around. However, I am still feeling all beat up by her. Her kicks and jabs are still so powerful and I feel bruised from the inside.
The doctor did mentioned that she encourages gestation to go up to 42 weeks so that I will labor on my own and therefore, induction date has been set on September the 13th if my baby falls to the stubborn category.
I even tried all the old wives’ tales of inducing labor naturally but they don’t work. They just don’t work on me.
I guess I just have to convince myself that Annakate will come when she is ready at her time! I am already 2cm dilated and I know labor will not be long from now. I have been experiencing these practice contractions (Braxton Hicks) every single day for the past weeks and these practice contractions are getting stronger each day. I just hope they progress into a real one!
“Come on, Grace – You’re near the finishing line.” I have to keep reminding myself with Habakkuk 2:3 that God will prepare me when the time is right. Oh yes, I have to keep having faith at my Heavenly Father to prepare for me despite the blues and misery I am facing right now.
And as for you little Annakate, albeit Mommy is miserable but mommy wanna see you healthy and safe. Don’t play with the cord too much, mommy doesn’t want you to get strangled. Be a good girl okay? Mommy loves you. Muahhhh!